So I haven't even thought of blogging since March. Crazy, right? I guess not really if I don't have many people who will even read this. Since last Wednesday I have been visiting my mom in Florida, I leave Saturday. The Spring semester ended May 7th, and yet the summer semester begins May 20th. Some summer break. I'm excited though! As of Monday I will officially be a college student. Funny thing is, I won't even have my High School Graduation until May 29th. The joys of doing the Adult High School program at a community college. I'm anxious for June 3rd, I begin the Nursing Assistant class, a major step toward my Nursing goal! I know thinking about this now as I write growing up I have changed my mind so much. I wanted to be a Veterinarian for so long, then a Journalist, then a photographer, then a Photojournalist, then a lawyer, and now a Nurse. But I actually do have my mind made up on being a Nurse.
What a busy weekend I have ahead of me! Traveling back home Saturday morning, then spending time with my dad the remaining of Saturday. Church, Sunday morning!! Then an interview Sunday afternoon. I really hope I get the job. Okay enough about that, Florida is amazing! I left North Carolina pale and I'm going back with somewhat of a tan, I have been to the beach twice since I have been here but I got burnt both times so I'm tan. I just love the waves at the beach, having them crash down on you taking you with them. Jumping waves, then going out tanning and coming home. Classes ends July 16th for one and then July 31st for the other, and the fall semester doesn't begin until August 19th so I will get a little bit of a break, hopefully I'm working.
I am a Christian, very proud of that. But I'm getting to the point where I'm done listening to Christian songs on Youtube. You have the bashers as I like to call them, where they just get on to bash Christ and I don't like that. You get an ongoing argument about God. Come on, if you didn't know he was real then why even listen to a song that is all for praising him? The lyrics are all about Jesus, all about what he has done and yet you are going to go on and on? Jesus died on the cross after suffering so much pain for all of us so we can live a life today and yet we can't even say he exists? Some excuses would be "God left me when I was in my worse times. Yet I'm supposed to believe him now?" No, God didn't leave you. He was carrying you along the way. No matter what happens God will never forget you, will never leave your side. Do not deny Jesus for he will deny you in front of his father.
Thursday, May 16, 2013
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
In Steph's head
I'm finally done with my High School education! I have my GED hanging up in my dad's living room! So now it's time for college. I know want I want to major in so that's a plus. I want to major in Nursing. I have to do a University Transfer Program at a Community College for two years. I'm attending the summer Semester at DTCC. I want to attend Cape Fear Community College in the fall up until I transfer. But I have my mom wanting me to go to Florida, my cousin at Wake Tech, a friend wants me to attend one in WV. After I attend the community college I get the fun thing of finding a University. Again with the thing, I get to decide which one to go to. I know I can't please everybody but myself. I want to attend UNC-W, but I'm not ruling out my options. I have a packet from ECU, I'm going to try to get more information from different colleges. Because by then I will have a job with the Nursing Assistant degree I will get so I will be able to help save up. My biggest plan is to get my Masters in one of Nursing so I will be in school for 10-12 years.
Reality has set in right now, with finishing my GED and getting accepted at DTCC I can't believe I'm in college. I can't believe I'm growing up faster than I wanted. One moment I'm 14 in 8th grade and then the next moment I'm 18 and a high school graduate. What happened to time? How come it passing by so fast? I miss the good old days when the school year dragged on instead of flying by like it is now. What's going to happen when I date? Settle down? Start a family? How fast will time fly by then? I don't want any of that to happen until I'm at least a RN Nurse, which is four years of school. Because the masters and stuff can be put off. I just really want to be a nurse.
My dream is to working at a Children Hospital, it can be here in North Carolina or the St. Judes Hospital. But if I can't then I just want to work in the E.R or it doesn't really matter. A nursing home will be fine. I know I will have to find my own way of coping with death when I lose my first patient, I know I can handle it. It's not a easy job, but it's something that I want to do because I want to make a difference, I want to help out.
On that note, for the first time in my life I get to help make a difference in somebody's life. On Tuesday I will be giving blood. I don't like needles but I'm giving blood. I'm not going to be one of those people who doesn't care about others around them, I want to help make a difference hint the reason I want to be a Nurse. It will be a good experience for me! My blood could save somebody's life!
Reality has set in right now, with finishing my GED and getting accepted at DTCC I can't believe I'm in college. I can't believe I'm growing up faster than I wanted. One moment I'm 14 in 8th grade and then the next moment I'm 18 and a high school graduate. What happened to time? How come it passing by so fast? I miss the good old days when the school year dragged on instead of flying by like it is now. What's going to happen when I date? Settle down? Start a family? How fast will time fly by then? I don't want any of that to happen until I'm at least a RN Nurse, which is four years of school. Because the masters and stuff can be put off. I just really want to be a nurse.
My dream is to working at a Children Hospital, it can be here in North Carolina or the St. Judes Hospital. But if I can't then I just want to work in the E.R or it doesn't really matter. A nursing home will be fine. I know I will have to find my own way of coping with death when I lose my first patient, I know I can handle it. It's not a easy job, but it's something that I want to do because I want to make a difference, I want to help out.
On that note, for the first time in my life I get to help make a difference in somebody's life. On Tuesday I will be giving blood. I don't like needles but I'm giving blood. I'm not going to be one of those people who doesn't care about others around them, I want to help make a difference hint the reason I want to be a Nurse. It will be a good experience for me! My blood could save somebody's life!
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Comparison
I realized I haven't blogged in forever, and I haven't really been on Booksie much either. My life has been crazy lately. But I do need to blog today. If you are reading this do you have siblings? If so are you the youngest or oldest? If you are the youngest or have an older sibling you can relate to this. I'm the youngest of six children. It feels like I'm always being compared to my brother. He's two years older than me, but he's my only full brother. I feel like I'm being compared to a lot of people. Since I couldn't go the Adult High School route I had to get my GED. I decided to take the class so I could be more prepared, and with taking the class you get a free certificate for a course and I needed that, same for my college prep class. I'm constantly being compared to my brother "He took all five tests in one day" or a family's friend "It didn't take him so long to get his GED." Or being asked "How come she is taking so long to get her GED?" Firstly, I'm not my brother. I wanted to take the class so I can get a free course for the summer semester. Secondly I wanted the extra help so I know I can pass it . I'm not dumb, I'm smart I just wanted to take the class. My last point with this I was the first one in my class to test out of the class, meaning I have either taken all five tests or I have all five yellow slips. I'm smart, I just wanted the class. Then there is being compared to "Your brother does this or that. Your brother this or that." Hello I'm not him. I'm nothing like him. Or being compared to anybody for that matter. I'm Stephanie. I'm me. Don't like it? Then go somewhere else. I'm not trying to be somebody else, I'm trying to be me.
Saturday, January 19, 2013
My opinions & thoughts
Alright, I wasn't going to blog today, I was going to try to blog once a week. But today I can't let this go no matter how hard I try. WARNING: If you are an atheist then you will get offended, if you are a Buddhist or another religion you will probably get offended. But either way I would love to have your opinions on this!
I play Songpop with my Facebook friends, I will admit that. Today I played a game with one of an old family's friend that we met at Church years ago and I picked the Christian/Gospel one and one song that I had to guess what You Found Me by The Frays. I really liked that song on Songpop so I thought to myself, let's Youtube it! Alright now when you're on Youtube listening to a song do you go to a different web browser? I was on my phone so I looked at the comments. Of course if you listen to a religious song you will have your Atheists comment on it getting an argument with the Christians. Now if you have ever been to Church, or ever been around a religious person you might have heard the saying "God is good all the time." Right? Well somebody put that down and said not.
I know everybody is entitled to their own opinions, that got me stirred up. Saying God isn't real, that God is just a creature we created for our own realization because we couldn't deal with our day-to-day life on our own. I will argue with somebody over this. When I was in Kindergarten, they have an after-school program and I was just a little girl, 5 years old or 6 six years old, there was a 5th grader so you're thinking 10-11 years old. A bigger person than I was anyways, they had the nerve to tell me that God isn't real. During the whole time that we waited until my mother came to pick me up I argued with that person about God being real. I was young, remember that I didn't know as much as I do now but I still defended God.
How do I know God is real? I was born dead, but they brought me back to life. I was five or six, and we planted a tomato plant in the back yard, it was dying. I prayed for it to come back to life, because the next day we were going to throw it away. The following morning it wasn't dead anymore, it had a tomato on it. Then a few years later, my oldest brother went fishing and he brought home two fish so we could eat. They sat in the fridge a couple days, and then my dad was going to take them back to the lake to see. We prayed over those fishes to make it, they swam away. In '99 I prayed for snow, I'm in the south so we don't get snow, we got enough snow that I couldn't play in it. Again in '00 or '01 I prayed for snow which was a bad thing since we ended up in an ice storm. I prayed for a cat I know that I was silly I was six, but I got a cat.
I will admit I'm not as good of a Christian as I should be or as I want to be, but I do believe in God. We can't see him, but he's there. I mean can you see wind? No you can't, but you can feel wind. When you're struggling God is by your side and you think you're alone, but you are never alone. You wonder why God lets bad things happen, it's not that he's making you struggle but it's a life test, and God is carrying you through it. I'm not trying to push my religion on you, but I won't deny God. My favorite bible verse that has helped me get through so much: Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengheneth me. That is so true, no matter what happens God won't leave you.
Okay I'm going on and on, but there's this one song One Thing Remains, and it's true God will never leave you, he had his only son die for our sins. I know people are going to believe whatever they want, I can't make you believe what I believe but I'm not going to stop. I will admit up until I started going to this Church I didn't go to church much in the past few years, I didn't read my bible, I didn't pray much. But now that I'm at this Church I will get up between 6-7 so I can catch a bus just to go to church. It's an awesome place to be, I'm getting my relationship back with God. God won't walk away from you, even if you walk away from him. Trust me I had that phase where I didn't believe in God because of a lot of things that happened but I disagree with that now.
I have a new band that I just started listening to today, Addison Road they or she, sings songs that you can relate to. Everybody has tests they go through in life, whether you're a firm believer or you don't believe at all. Your tests just seems easier to go through when you have God's faith with you. You will have God holding your hand helping you through anything. You have Hope, you have faith, and you trust God..
Alright I'm done going on and on, I let my steam out that was bothering me.
I play Songpop with my Facebook friends, I will admit that. Today I played a game with one of an old family's friend that we met at Church years ago and I picked the Christian/Gospel one and one song that I had to guess what You Found Me by The Frays. I really liked that song on Songpop so I thought to myself, let's Youtube it! Alright now when you're on Youtube listening to a song do you go to a different web browser? I was on my phone so I looked at the comments. Of course if you listen to a religious song you will have your Atheists comment on it getting an argument with the Christians. Now if you have ever been to Church, or ever been around a religious person you might have heard the saying "God is good all the time." Right? Well somebody put that down and said not.
I know everybody is entitled to their own opinions, that got me stirred up. Saying God isn't real, that God is just a creature we created for our own realization because we couldn't deal with our day-to-day life on our own. I will argue with somebody over this. When I was in Kindergarten, they have an after-school program and I was just a little girl, 5 years old or 6 six years old, there was a 5th grader so you're thinking 10-11 years old. A bigger person than I was anyways, they had the nerve to tell me that God isn't real. During the whole time that we waited until my mother came to pick me up I argued with that person about God being real. I was young, remember that I didn't know as much as I do now but I still defended God.
How do I know God is real? I was born dead, but they brought me back to life. I was five or six, and we planted a tomato plant in the back yard, it was dying. I prayed for it to come back to life, because the next day we were going to throw it away. The following morning it wasn't dead anymore, it had a tomato on it. Then a few years later, my oldest brother went fishing and he brought home two fish so we could eat. They sat in the fridge a couple days, and then my dad was going to take them back to the lake to see. We prayed over those fishes to make it, they swam away. In '99 I prayed for snow, I'm in the south so we don't get snow, we got enough snow that I couldn't play in it. Again in '00 or '01 I prayed for snow which was a bad thing since we ended up in an ice storm. I prayed for a cat I know that I was silly I was six, but I got a cat.
I will admit I'm not as good of a Christian as I should be or as I want to be, but I do believe in God. We can't see him, but he's there. I mean can you see wind? No you can't, but you can feel wind. When you're struggling God is by your side and you think you're alone, but you are never alone. You wonder why God lets bad things happen, it's not that he's making you struggle but it's a life test, and God is carrying you through it. I'm not trying to push my religion on you, but I won't deny God. My favorite bible verse that has helped me get through so much: Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengheneth me. That is so true, no matter what happens God won't leave you.
Okay I'm going on and on, but there's this one song One Thing Remains, and it's true God will never leave you, he had his only son die for our sins. I know people are going to believe whatever they want, I can't make you believe what I believe but I'm not going to stop. I will admit up until I started going to this Church I didn't go to church much in the past few years, I didn't read my bible, I didn't pray much. But now that I'm at this Church I will get up between 6-7 so I can catch a bus just to go to church. It's an awesome place to be, I'm getting my relationship back with God. God won't walk away from you, even if you walk away from him. Trust me I had that phase where I didn't believe in God because of a lot of things that happened but I disagree with that now.
I have a new band that I just started listening to today, Addison Road they or she, sings songs that you can relate to. Everybody has tests they go through in life, whether you're a firm believer or you don't believe at all. Your tests just seems easier to go through when you have God's faith with you. You will have God holding your hand helping you through anything. You have Hope, you have faith, and you trust God..
Alright I'm done going on and on, I let my steam out that was bothering me.
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
A random blog
Okay, so it's Steph here. Of course, right? Who else would it be? Justin Bieber? Ha, no. I realized I haven't blogged recently, and I wanted to blog at least once a week. Tonight will be a random blog filled with different topics to make it a little interesting. So here I go..
This week in the new Beginning Workshop for the Adult High School or GED program has been testing! Yay me! Yesterday was Reading/Language Arts, I feel like I did okay on that one. Today was Basic math, and applied math. Yikes! I think I did okay on those as well.There were three different levels of books to test out of, we took a locator test Thursday to determine which one we would test out of, a reddish color meant you didn't test high enough so you would have to re-test, Green was difficult which meant you were middle level, and blue was Advanced. I tested out of the blue for both days, and with the advanced today it was Algebra, and Geometry. I just got out of Geometry but it was the questions that had me confused in Geometry. Yes I'm two years behind in math, I know. But I still feel like I did decent enough. I think we find out tomorrow, classes begin on Tuesday!
Okay now a different topic, I'm going to name off a few of the most visited/most used websites and apps I use. Apple or Android fan? I'm an Apple. My most visited is Booksie, then it's Google, Gmail, the bus website, and then it's Facebook. I'm not on Facebook until the 27th that's why it's so down on my most visited list. Now for the top five Apps I use, Instagram which I use daily! I run a cat pageants called Pawpageants for all you Instagramers out there who owns cats! Then it's Subway Surf, I got hooked on it when I downloaded the App for a kid I was baby-sitting, Temple Run, Facebook app, and lastly Songpop. Okay and the top two electronic devices I couldn't live without? My Iphone, and my laptop. TV I could just read a book or something.
Today my instructor informed us that they are cutting the teachers back, and the program is going to change due to cut back. I didn't speak when they had the debate about it in class before the test but I let thoughts run through my mind. They say education is the most important thing, right? Then why do they always cut teachers first? They are changing the programs around, making it where no summer classes will be at my Community College, yet education is so important. The Government is really messed up, the GED tests are going to cost more and be harder in 2014, what about the people who are struggling to afford it now? The Government doesn't care, our major doesn't care, they just care about their paychecks. And all the promises of new jobs, is a lie. The new companies we get that promises more jobs, is 3/4 filled with people from their companies so only 1/4 is from the unemployed in America. It's time for some Change, but now the change Mr. President Obama was talking about. Our education is important, we don't need teachers cut, or make it more expensive to afford to go, we don't need more fake promises about jobs and then be let down. We need a leader who will take charge,who will turn this country around. In order for that we need members in the Government to actually care about us. We need to take charge, we need to go to our Congressmen and tell them our thoughts and opinions.
Okay, I'm admitting now I am an American Idol fan, thanks to a friend two years ago. I'm excited for the new season! I have only seen one season which was two years ago, last season I didn't have a TV to watch it with. But you will best believe I will be watching it tomorrow. I love watching the auditions, it's the best part. I know I'm just giving into the entertainment bottomless pit.I also watch the typical teenager girl show on ABC Family, and LifeTime. Switched at Birth, Pretty Little Liars, Dance Moms, Army Wives, you name it. I also love horror movies, and chick flicks. I'm a girl of many interests.
Speaking of many interests I get sidetracked easily and I lose my train of thought a lot.I get easily distracted, I can be focusing on something like this blog and then I get a text and I'm like Yay text! So I look, or I see something interesting on TV, or I just lose train of focus and I look at something else. I'm easily amused to, that is the worse part about me. Something shiny like if I have a ring that sparkles I mess with it, and let the shiny part catch my attention, playing a silly game can get me amused, playing with duck tape can get me amused.
Alright that should be enough of me going on for tonight, sorry I got distracted by something I'm not even sure of. Thank you for reading my lovely blog, sorry if it bored you! Have a good day/night! Stay strong! A Smile is worth a thousand words!
This week in the new Beginning Workshop for the Adult High School or GED program has been testing! Yay me! Yesterday was Reading/Language Arts, I feel like I did okay on that one. Today was Basic math, and applied math. Yikes! I think I did okay on those as well.There were three different levels of books to test out of, we took a locator test Thursday to determine which one we would test out of, a reddish color meant you didn't test high enough so you would have to re-test, Green was difficult which meant you were middle level, and blue was Advanced. I tested out of the blue for both days, and with the advanced today it was Algebra, and Geometry. I just got out of Geometry but it was the questions that had me confused in Geometry. Yes I'm two years behind in math, I know. But I still feel like I did decent enough. I think we find out tomorrow, classes begin on Tuesday!
Okay now a different topic, I'm going to name off a few of the most visited/most used websites and apps I use. Apple or Android fan? I'm an Apple. My most visited is Booksie, then it's Google, Gmail, the bus website, and then it's Facebook. I'm not on Facebook until the 27th that's why it's so down on my most visited list. Now for the top five Apps I use, Instagram which I use daily! I run a cat pageants called Pawpageants for all you Instagramers out there who owns cats! Then it's Subway Surf, I got hooked on it when I downloaded the App for a kid I was baby-sitting, Temple Run, Facebook app, and lastly Songpop. Okay and the top two electronic devices I couldn't live without? My Iphone, and my laptop. TV I could just read a book or something.
Today my instructor informed us that they are cutting the teachers back, and the program is going to change due to cut back. I didn't speak when they had the debate about it in class before the test but I let thoughts run through my mind. They say education is the most important thing, right? Then why do they always cut teachers first? They are changing the programs around, making it where no summer classes will be at my Community College, yet education is so important. The Government is really messed up, the GED tests are going to cost more and be harder in 2014, what about the people who are struggling to afford it now? The Government doesn't care, our major doesn't care, they just care about their paychecks. And all the promises of new jobs, is a lie. The new companies we get that promises more jobs, is 3/4 filled with people from their companies so only 1/4 is from the unemployed in America. It's time for some Change, but now the change Mr. President Obama was talking about. Our education is important, we don't need teachers cut, or make it more expensive to afford to go, we don't need more fake promises about jobs and then be let down. We need a leader who will take charge,who will turn this country around. In order for that we need members in the Government to actually care about us. We need to take charge, we need to go to our Congressmen and tell them our thoughts and opinions.
Okay, I'm admitting now I am an American Idol fan, thanks to a friend two years ago. I'm excited for the new season! I have only seen one season which was two years ago, last season I didn't have a TV to watch it with. But you will best believe I will be watching it tomorrow. I love watching the auditions, it's the best part. I know I'm just giving into the entertainment bottomless pit.I also watch the typical teenager girl show on ABC Family, and LifeTime. Switched at Birth, Pretty Little Liars, Dance Moms, Army Wives, you name it. I also love horror movies, and chick flicks. I'm a girl of many interests.
Speaking of many interests I get sidetracked easily and I lose my train of thought a lot.I get easily distracted, I can be focusing on something like this blog and then I get a text and I'm like Yay text! So I look, or I see something interesting on TV, or I just lose train of focus and I look at something else. I'm easily amused to, that is the worse part about me. Something shiny like if I have a ring that sparkles I mess with it, and let the shiny part catch my attention, playing a silly game can get me amused, playing with duck tape can get me amused.
Alright that should be enough of me going on for tonight, sorry I got distracted by something I'm not even sure of. Thank you for reading my lovely blog, sorry if it bored you! Have a good day/night! Stay strong! A Smile is worth a thousand words!
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
Okay, it was either write another blog tonight or write a poem. My mind is actually blank on writing poems so I decided to do this instead. Today was my second day in class, first day actually do stuff. I'm not like a lot of people, I haven't been years out of school. I was doing Florida Virtual School up until June or July, so I have done school, I have done math. But going over fractions today I was like what?! My mind went blank, I have to cram this all in my head and still do good on the tests next week. Tomorrow we have a quiz on multiplication, something I am a wiz at! He was calling on people and if you got so many right then you couldn't do tomorrow, I was hoping he would call on me but I'm glad he didn't. We're in study groups, and my two study group people aren't that good with it, so I'm like I can help! That's the only thing I'm good at with math, I use to be able to tell you all from 1-12 off the back, but I will admit I gotten used to calculator. But if you do a number like 405*504 I won't be able to answer that but, like 9*7 is 63, and you can take my word or not. But don't worry I made a study guide so I'm going to look over it tomorrow before I get tested. I like learning about subjects and learning about things, but my worse issue is I hate taking tests, I freeze up and I get all nervous and I freeze up. And the test next weeks I have to score at least a 9th grade level to take the high school course or I would be in a special program. I'm hoping if I do get lower, I don't have to retake the class again. I'm hoping I will do good enough, I will be good enough to only have to take the four credits I need. But something tells me I have to have two semesters since I need Algebra 2, Calculus, English 4, and some other credit. Both hopefully I'm wrong. I really want to graduate in May so I can do the Nursing Assistant course and then get a job with that and work while I go to be a Nurse. I really want to work in the nursing home for now so I can help with the adults and do a good deed. But where I want to work after I get my Nursing degree is at a Children's Hospital. I'm really good with kids, I love kids and I really want to work there so I can be around there and give them my comfort when I work. My goal is to have the highest degree in nursing you can have. I know it won't be done in one straight shot but that's my highest goal. I know I'm still not ready for college yet, I need to know what I want to major in. I remember being younger and wanting to be a vet, then changed to a Journalist/writer up until 9th grade and then a photographer, and then a lawyer, and now a Nurse. I'm going to follow with this because this is something I really want to do. I want to help make a difference in the world, I want to change myself and I know being a Nurse will do some good. I know I'm just going on and on about this. But I want to volunteer at different places so I can feel better about myself. I want to do some good in my life and I know this will help.
Monday, January 7, 2013
Spills the beans girl!
Okay, I'm not allowed on Facebook until 20 days from now, due to my Religious beliefs and what my Church is doing. But I had to write it, I had to talk about it. As I mentioned in my first blog I'm a high school student, I'm a senior. I began my first day today at the community college for the Adult High School program. I am not a high school student, I am a college student. I got so excited hearing that! Today we just covered the basic rules and guidelines. This week will just be a review of the basic information and then next week will be the tests to determine where we will be put. I have to score at least at a 9.0 level to be in the program I want to be in. You need 21 credits to graduate and I need four more to go. I have a study group that I'm with now, two other girls. As of right now I don't see any potential friends but it was just day one. I like the one who will be instructing the two week workshop, he's an Ex-Military for twelve years and a police officer for 15 and so on. So he's tough and firm but he's good. My biggest issue this morning was the bug driver was in a hurry and I was nervous so I got off at one stop hoping it was the right one, I asked a stranger if I was at the right building and she actually helped me into the right building. I couldn't believe that, I was about to have a panic attacking thinking I got off at the wrong stop but I didn't. I think I will love this!
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